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May 29, 2006
A Case of Mine
Sam and Amy were an American couple, they came to Haikou China for missionary work. It was said that they had sold their house in California in order to get enough money to support their daily life here.
On Christmas eve, they went to the municipal hospital to visit the poor patients there. Those people were very miserable, so the American couple brought them some presents and they chatted so that the patients could made that cold night a little bit wormer, at least in their minds. Of course, the couple brought the story of Jesus Christ the savior to these Chinese villagers and city residents.
Among those patients, the couple met Hong Lian, who was a thirties single women suffering from breast cancer. She’s from a sequestered westren province, and had no friends, no money. Some local Christian took care of her voluntarily. The more worse thing was that she got pregnant one year ago, and her boyfriend cheated her. After sleep around for weeks he vanished and never returned. In September the baby was delivered, they named him Tian Ci, which means God’s grace. The local Christians had no ability to deal with the baby so they suggested the American couple adopt the baby. Hong Lian thoughts it a good idea. She accepted this idea. Then Sam came to my law office for consultation on the legal matters involved the process. His problem was that the municipal hospital would not let anybody take the baby, Tian Ci, out of the control of the nurse unless Hong Lian or somebody paid the Bill of Treatment.
I accepted Tim’s case, contacted with the municipal hospital, interviewed the administrative officer of the hospital. I asked why Hong Lian had two Bills one for the cancer treatment of about 70,000yuan, and another for birth delivery of about 25,000yuan Hong Lian was too poor to afford this. They called her family but her mother had been dead for many years, her father was too old and poor to have done anything. She had a sister in her hometown but the sister said it hadn’t been her business. She was also very poor. They tried to fine the man who made Hong Lian pregnant, but they failed, so the municipal hospital insisted on holding the baby until receipt of Sam’s payment.
I suggested to Sam that he’d better make a lawsuit to get the baby back, and that was unreasonable to remain a hostage for payment. Even Chinese law prohibited this action. But at the last minute Sam changed his mind. He chose payment instead of a lawsuit. I had to negotiate with the administrative officer. Weeks late, they offered a proposal: if Sam paid 25,000yuan (the bill of delivery) they would relingguish the control of the baby. Sam accepted it. The couple brought the baby from the hospital to their home. It would be a long way to legally adopt the baby, for Chinese law does not promote adoption especially by a foreigner, but Sam thought they would be better to try it and I promised to give them my help. They appreciated this. The baby looked happier than when he was in hospital. The mother, Hong Lian was satisfied with the resolution. Two months latter, she died. The corpse was burnt. Sam and Amy kept the ashes.
8:44 PM | PermalinkMay 27
I HAVE A DREAM
I am dreaming to be a Tibetan Lama whom wears crimson clothes and have very short haircutting pattern. Reciting the sutra around the mist of incensation, eyeing the rusty world by a cold mind.
我有一个梦想:做个喇嘛，穿红色衣服，剪短短头发;每天诵经，冷眼看芸芸众生，梵香缭绕。在德钦时有人称呼我“菩萨”。10:22 PM | Permalinkposing before the Ming Yong Glacier
I have been to Shangri-La last August. I visited the Gaden Sumtseling Monastery that in a short distance outside the county city. This was my first time to see a Tibetan Monastery and it's great experience for me, the giant building, colorful porch, the white chorten etc. impress me deeply. Then I visted the Mekong river and the Glacier. In the mountain of Kagebal I found a beautiful flower which is very resemble to Edelweiss, but I'm not sure is it a real sort of Edelweiss. It recall me a dream to visite the alps, to see the edelweiss personally.
10:03 PM | PermalinkMay 24
DRUNKARD ROBBER
Mr. Yao was a carpenter. He was hired to decorate a bar room with other workers last summer. One evening, when they finished their job, all of them had dinner together, after they drank lots of alcohol. Yao had an intense quarrel with another worker. The two drunkards fought each other, but the war was stopped. The foreman separated them, and ordered Yao home. Yao bought a cooking knife nearby, nobody knew why he did that, he said he prepared for potential revenge. Then he took a taxi home. He got in taxi and negotiated the fare with the driver. The driver can’t accepted Yao’s offer. Beside that Yao was total drunkard, and most taxi drivers would not serve the drunkard, so the driver asked Yao to exit the auto. At that moment, Yao pull out his cooking knife, put it on the dash board. The following conversation was argued between prosecutor and defense, but I believe Yao talked to the driver and forced him provide the service. The taxi was on its way to Yao’s domicile when the argued activity had happened. The driver said Yao order him to give all his money or he would be killed, but Yao denied it. Yao was so drunk that he fell asleep. Then the taxi changed its way to the police station. Yao was arrested. The charge was robbery with a weapon.
Weeks later, Yao’s wife came to my law office. I accepted the job of defendant for Yao. I read the documents and interviewed Yao in a detention house, and called the driver. Too much evidence for Yao was guilty. Yao told me he was forced to tell a false story in the police station and that the money they found in his pocket belonged to himself not the driver. I prepared my documents to challenge parts of charge. In session, I presented my questions. The biggest question was the money. The money was 99 Yuan. In the driver’s story the notes are one fifty Yuan bill, and one twenty bill, and one more five Yuan notes. But the police’s record did not support these notes. Second question of mine was whether a real robber would fall asleep after this incident.
The judge gave a guilty verdict, according to the criminal code: ‘Robbery with weapon in public vehicle, at least 10 years in jail.’ But, in this case, the sentence was 4 years in jail; I think it was the best I could do for my client for the charge.
11:32 PM | PermalinkI AM NOTHING
I wish you could visit my blog again, the bolg, the tiny humble cyberspace, no one care about it.
When I received the invitation of Short Message, I was so surprise. I would say I had been attracted by you at your first appearing. You are vivid, and I can feel the energy of youth from you. But do you think I am strong or stupid enough to express my feeling to you. If things like that, what should I say? I came to you, stared at your eyes, and told you that I really like you or something like that. What you would response for. Probably was “how dare you say that "," you are forties, you have family, I know guys like you just want to play with me, sleep around, "... Do you know how happy I was, when yesterday you told me you were waiting for something from me.
I appreciate you and what you say. It made me so proud, but after that is horror, if I accepted it, the relationship would injure you deeply, and changes our world. We are colleague, we are alumnal, we are woman and man, and they are real world. The more horrible thing is that you want all of my life that not only belongs to me. I am a father of my daughter, I’m a husband, I am not what I am, because parts of my life is my daughter’s, I know you do not like those, you want to strip the parts from me. You want a pure guy. You said your dad would kill you if he knows you fall in love with a forties man who is 16 year old than you. Same thing will happen to me, my daughter will kill me, in her mind. She won’t accept you all her life, more worse is she maybe leave me alone and never back to me when she grown up.
So babe, take care of yourself, not for me, but for you dad, for your ma, for a luck boy who I envy. You want to see the tear of mine; I told you man crying in his deep mind. Like Mel Gibson in his Braveheart, the last ward before that guy had been hung was...freedom. Oh freedom. It smells so tasty, so sweet, same thing I want is freedom but I lost it. The world had robbed everyone’s freedom not physically but mentally. You know something, that you looks like the French princess in the movie Braveheart. I like her more than the Scottish girl. You told me the stories of Scotland, the land you had been to and loved. You are so brilliant girl, you are young, you have wonderful future, and you will win this world like a princess. I am but one person in this world. I am nothing.
7:19 PM | Read comments (1) | Permalink
A Case of Mine
Sam and Amy were an American couple, they came to Haikou China for missionary work. It was said that they had sold their house in California in order to get enough money to support their daily life here.
On Christmas eve, they went to the municipal hospital to visit the poor patients there. Those people were very miserable, so the American couple brought them some presents and they chatted so that the patients could made that cold night a little bit wormer, at least in their minds. Of course, the couple brought the story of Jesus Christ the savior to these Chinese villagers and city residents.
Among those patients, the couple met Hong Lian, who was a thirties single women suffering from breast cancer. She’s from a sequestered westren province, and had no friends, no money. Some local Christian took care of her voluntarily. The more worse thing was that she got pregnant one year ago, and her boyfriend cheated her. After sleep around for weeks he vanished and never returned. In September the baby was delivered, they named him Tian Ci, which means God’s grace. The local Christians had no ability to deal with the baby so they suggested the American couple adopt the baby. Hong Lian thoughts it a good idea. She accepted this idea. Then Sam came to my law office for consultation on the legal matters involved the process. His problem was that the municipal hospital would not let anybody take the baby, Tian Ci, out of the control of the nurse unless Hong Lian or somebody paid the Bill of Treatment.
I accepted Tim’s case, contacted with the municipal hospital, interviewed the administrative officer of the hospital. I asked why Hong Lian had two Bills one for the cancer treatment of about 70,000yuan, and another for birth delivery of about 25,000yuan Hong Lian was too poor to afford this. They called her family but her mother had been dead for many years, her father was too old and poor to have done anything. She had a sister in her hometown but the sister said it hadn’t been her business. She was also very poor. They tried to fine the man who made Hong Lian pregnant, but they failed, so the municipal hospital insisted on holding the baby until receipt of Sam’s payment.
I suggested to Sam that he’d better make a lawsuit to get the baby back, and that was unreasonable to remain a hostage for payment. Even Chinese law prohibited this action. But at the last minute Sam changed his mind. He chose payment instead of a lawsuit. I had to negotiate with the administrative officer. Weeks late, they offered a proposal: if Sam paid 25,000yuan (the bill of delivery) they would relingguish the control of the baby. Sam accepted it. The couple brought the baby from the hospital to their home. It would be a long way to legally adopt the baby, for Chinese law does not promote adoption especially by a foreigner, but Sam thought they would be better to try it and I promised to give them my help. They appreciated this. The baby looked happier than when he was in hospital. The mother, Hong Lian was satisfied with the resolution. Two months latter, she died. The corpse was burnt. Sam and Amy kept the ashes.
8:44 PM | PermalinkMay 27
I HAVE A DREAM
I am dreaming to be a Tibetan Lama whom wears crimson clothes and have very short haircutting pattern. Reciting the sutra around the mist of incensation, eyeing the rusty world by a cold mind.
我有一个梦想:做个喇嘛，穿红色衣服，剪短短头发;每天诵经，冷眼看芸芸众生，梵香缭绕。在德钦时有人称呼我“菩萨”。10:22 PM | Permalinkposing before the Ming Yong Glacier
I have been to Shangri-La last August. I visited the Gaden Sumtseling Monastery that in a short distance outside the county city. This was my first time to see a Tibetan Monastery and it's great experience for me, the giant building, colorful porch, the white chorten etc. impress me deeply. Then I visted the Mekong river and the Glacier. In the mountain of Kagebal I found a beautiful flower which is very resemble to Edelweiss, but I'm not sure is it a real sort of Edelweiss. It recall me a dream to visite the alps, to see the edelweiss personally.
10:03 PM | PermalinkMay 24
DRUNKARD ROBBER
Mr. Yao was a carpenter. He was hired to decorate a bar room with other workers last summer. One evening, when they finished their job, all of them had dinner together, after they drank lots of alcohol. Yao had an intense quarrel with another worker. The two drunkards fought each other, but the war was stopped. The foreman separated them, and ordered Yao home. Yao bought a cooking knife nearby, nobody knew why he did that, he said he prepared for potential revenge. Then he took a taxi home. He got in taxi and negotiated the fare with the driver. The driver can’t accepted Yao’s offer. Beside that Yao was total drunkard, and most taxi drivers would not serve the drunkard, so the driver asked Yao to exit the auto. At that moment, Yao pull out his cooking knife, put it on the dash board. The following conversation was argued between prosecutor and defense, but I believe Yao talked to the driver and forced him provide the service. The taxi was on its way to Yao’s domicile when the argued activity had happened. The driver said Yao order him to give all his money or he would be killed, but Yao denied it. Yao was so drunk that he fell asleep. Then the taxi changed its way to the police station. Yao was arrested. The charge was robbery with a weapon.
Weeks later, Yao’s wife came to my law office. I accepted the job of defendant for Yao. I read the documents and interviewed Yao in a detention house, and called the driver. Too much evidence for Yao was guilty. Yao told me he was forced to tell a false story in the police station and that the money they found in his pocket belonged to himself not the driver. I prepared my documents to challenge parts of charge. In session, I presented my questions. The biggest question was the money. The money was 99 Yuan. In the driver’s story the notes are one fifty Yuan bill, and one twenty bill, and one more five Yuan notes. But the police’s record did not support these notes. Second question of mine was whether a real robber would fall asleep after this incident.
The judge gave a guilty verdict, according to the criminal code: ‘Robbery with weapon in public vehicle, at least 10 years in jail.’ But, in this case, the sentence was 4 years in jail; I think it was the best I could do for my client for the charge.
11:32 PM | PermalinkI AM NOTHING
I wish you could visit my blog again, the bolg, the tiny humble cyberspace, no one care about it.
When I received the invitation of Short Message, I was so surprise. I would say I had been attracted by you at your first appearing. You are vivid, and I can feel the energy of youth from you. But do you think I am strong or stupid enough to express my feeling to you. If things like that, what should I say? I came to you, stared at your eyes, and told you that I really like you or something like that. What you would response for. Probably was “how dare you say that "," you are forties, you have family, I know guys like you just want to play with me, sleep around, "... Do you know how happy I was, when yesterday you told me you were waiting for something from me.
I appreciate you and what you say. It made me so proud, but after that is horror, if I accepted it, the relationship would injure you deeply, and changes our world. We are colleague, we are alumnal, we are woman and man, and they are real world. The more horrible thing is that you want all of my life that not only belongs to me. I am a father of my daughter, I’m a husband, I am not what I am, because parts of my life is my daughter’s, I know you do not like those, you want to strip the parts from me. You want a pure guy. You said your dad would kill you if he knows you fall in love with a forties man who is 16 year old than you. Same thing will happen to me, my daughter will kill me, in her mind. She won’t accept you all her life, more worse is she maybe leave me alone and never back to me when she grown up.
So babe, take care of yourself, not for me, but for you dad, for your ma, for a luck boy who I envy. You want to see the tear of mine; I told you man crying in his deep mind. Like Mel Gibson in his Braveheart, the last ward before that guy had been hung was...freedom. Oh freedom. It smells so tasty, so sweet, same thing I want is freedom but I lost it. The world had robbed everyone’s freedom not physically but mentally. You know something, that you looks like the French princess in the movie Braveheart. I like her more than the Scottish girl. You told me the stories of Scotland, the land you had been to and loved. You are so brilliant girl, you are young, you have wonderful future, and you will win this world like a princess. I am but one person in this world. I am nothing.
7:19 PM | Read comments (1) | Permalink
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February 12,2006
海口至昆明 自驾车
2006年1月24日，7：55AM从家出发，8：30+-到新港码头。等待过海至10：00左右。12：00到达海安。当天6：00左右到南宁，住南宁海浪湾酒店。
1月25日，南宁至贵州兴义。地图标示的广西与贵州边境线路与实际有误。结论：问路优先，地图仅仅作为参考。当晚8：00左右到兴义，住紫苑宾馆。
1月26日，兴义至昆明。议论：丑恶的西部人之一。贵州云南边境一个小镇叫威舍，公路从村街中通过，9：00AM左右经过时正值赶集，村民把货摊紧靠公路摆放，双向行驶的车辆在此堵塞。其中有运送挖掘机的超大型平板车，会车时经过一个卖“粑粑/饵脍”之类的摊，一个女人在他的粑粑饵脍上无意识的用竹片抹来抹去，它并无很繁忙的生意，平板车在他的货摊前停住了，大约差1米多的空间才能过去，但在那女人根本无视他的摊点阻断了至少20辆各种车辆的通行，继续在那里装模做样的抹来抹去。那女人大约40岁左右，穿深色衣服，胸前系一个同样深色的大大围裙，一幅典型的云贵人随时准备与他人为蝇头小利吵架的神情。他的摊点，说实话突出至公路中间实在是太过分了，公平的说无论他受到过什么不公正待遇，还是由一大堆决不妥协的歪理邪说，在文明世界的价值标准中应该是他让汽车通过，至少我本人在他那种场合我会让路。但最终是两旁的车辆驾驶员艰难地挪挪挤挤，大车的后轮几乎零距离接触，擦过了险阻。就在大型平板车刚刚过去后，一个十几岁的男孩，把水果摊下的一个白色水果箱向公路中间推进了几十厘米，他的用意很明显，”让后面的车辆通行更加困难“。他们不乐意看到交通畅通当然有他们的理由，但是我认为这种现象后面是一种文化，是一种造就敌视和不宽容的文化，很遗憾这就是中华文化的一部分，建立在这种文化上的制度大概也不会是什么好制度，如过路费制度、燃油定价机制等等，说起理由来无不冠冕堂皇，深究真实动机无一不是不道德的利益追求。
落后、贫穷、治安恶化、水土流失、生育失控。。。都不是无缘无故出现的现象，文化、制度是因；贫困、落后是果。
海口至昆明 自驾车
2006年1月24日，7：55AM从家出发，8：30+-到新港码头。等待过海至10：00左右。12：00到达海安。当天6：00左右到南宁，住南宁海浪湾酒店。
1月25日，南宁至贵州兴义。地图标示的广西与贵州边境线路与实际有误。结论：问路优先，地图仅仅作为参考。当晚8：00左右到兴义，住紫苑宾馆。
1月26日，兴义至昆明。议论：丑恶的西部人之一。贵州云南边境一个小镇叫威舍，公路从村街中通过，9：00AM左右经过时正值赶集，村民把货摊紧靠公路摆放，双向行驶的车辆在此堵塞。其中有运送挖掘机的超大型平板车，会车时经过一个卖“粑粑/饵脍”之类的摊，一个女人在他的粑粑饵脍上无意识的用竹片抹来抹去，它并无很繁忙的生意，平板车在他的货摊前停住了，大约差1米多的空间才能过去，但在那女人根本无视他的摊点阻断了至少20辆各种车辆的通行，继续在那里装模做样的抹来抹去。那女人大约40岁左右，穿深色衣服，胸前系一个同样深色的大大围裙，一幅典型的云贵人随时准备与他人为蝇头小利吵架的神情。他的摊点，说实话突出至公路中间实在是太过分了，公平的说无论他受到过什么不公正待遇，还是由一大堆决不妥协的歪理邪说，在文明世界的价值标准中应该是他让汽车通过，至少我本人在他那种场合我会让路。但最终是两旁的车辆驾驶员艰难地挪挪挤挤，大车的后轮几乎零距离接触，擦过了险阻。就在大型平板车刚刚过去后，一个十几岁的男孩，把水果摊下的一个白色水果箱向公路中间推进了几十厘米，他的用意很明显，”让后面的车辆通行更加困难“。他们不乐意看到交通畅通当然有他们的理由，但是我认为这种现象后面是一种文化，是一种造就敌视和不宽容的文化，很遗憾这就是中华文化的一部分，建立在这种文化上的制度大概也不会是什么好制度，如过路费制度、燃油定价机制等等，说起理由来无不冠冕堂皇，深究真实动机无一不是不道德的利益追求。
落后、贫穷、治安恶化、水土流失、生育失控。。。都不是无缘无故出现的现象，文化、制度是因；贫困、落后是果。
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December 29
O2 xda mini using
O2 xda mini
i bought it at friday Dec. 23, 2005 in shanghai, It cost me 3900CNY.
advantage:
厚重高档，黑色外观与众不同。省去了同时携带手机和ppc的麻烦。
Disadvantage:
铃声太小，尤其是短信铃声。没有来电防火墙（与Siemens sl42比较）。不能把未接来电转接到录音机（和SONY Z28）
O2 xda mini using
O2 xda mini
i bought it at friday Dec. 23, 2005 in shanghai, It cost me 3900CNY.
advantage:
厚重高档，黑色外观与众不同。省去了同时携带手机和ppc的麻烦。
Disadvantage:
铃声太小，尤其是短信铃声。没有来电防火墙（与Siemens sl42比较）。不能把未接来电转接到录音机（和SONY Z28）
v20110206 11
December 20,2005
business trip to Shanghai
Today, I am going to shanghai pudong for Business trip. what i want to do is collect evidence for the case of Proc. v. LU ZM. I took off at 8:05 by flight CZ3531, Southern Chinese Airline. it cost 430 CNY, the hotel here is near the dong fang lu.
business trip to Shanghai
Today, I am going to shanghai pudong for Business trip. what i want to do is collect evidence for the case of Proc. v. LU ZM. I took off at 8:05 by flight CZ3531, Southern Chinese Airline. it cost 430 CNY, the hotel here is near the dong fang lu.
v20110206 10
July 08
爱别离
佛说人生七苦：生、老、病、死、怨憎会、爱别离、求不得。人生真是这样暗淡吗？为什么不能和自己相爱的人厮守？this fucking world, this fucking civilization, 惊心动魄排山倒海的爱情难道真是自私的基因为繁衍人类而包裹在苦难人生外面的糖衣吗？人孤独无助地来到这个世界，父母会逝去、子女会飞走、兄弟姐妹会有他们自己的人生，相爱的人会擦肩而过，恩爱夫妻会先后死去，把另一半孤独的留在人世，直面孤独，享受孤独注定是人生的常态。窗外是星空，面前是网络空间，也许人生之美注定是苍凉之美，像梵高的《星月夜》，火焰般的柏树，绚丽漩涡般的亮丽星旋，我看到梵高眼中的世界，那种太空般的深邃孤独，也许，也许能守护我们脆弱心灵的只有酒精、咖啡、运动、工作、暴食、烟草、音乐………甚至是蹦极跳那样的精神自慰。为什么？为什么? 美好的事物总是转瞬即逝，只有平淡无奇才会永恒？
你的女人花是为我而开吗？梅艳芳的歌那么悲凉无奈，就像她自己的人生，就像我小时候看过的昙花开放。在那个苍凉的矿山，命运把父母和我像外星人般抛到那个云南普通山谷，那时第一次体会美学元素就是和很多男女老少看电影似的围着那户姚姓人家的昙花，白色的花苞夹杂着粉红色的苞线，大家目不转睛的议论着、期盼着，一阵风吹过，一个白痴高叫“开了、开了”然后大众一阵哄笑。人们忍受不住这份平淡，纷纷离去。等到她在不经意中真正开放时，你知道那个兴奋的男孩吗，他高兴得直跳直叫，他真的认为那花是专为他一个人盛开的。
“若是你闻过了花香浓，别问我花儿是为谁红，爱过知情重，醉过知酒浓，花开花谢终是空，缘份不停留像春风来又走，女人如花花似梦”梅艳芳仍在播放器上低声倾诉。当年那男孩如今变成男人，变成老公，他真的好想好想变成你的老公，每夜让你枕在他肩头入睡，每天将你吻醒，挣比今天多得多的钱，让你生活在无忧无虑的奢华中。我们有缘吗？我们有份吗？我真想把所有我爱的人和爱我的人紧紧拥在怀中，永远不让谁离开。但终究会像肥皂泡碰在一起那样，一个个消散在星空中，留下我在深夜品味美味的咖啡和孤独。
爱别离
佛说人生七苦：生、老、病、死、怨憎会、爱别离、求不得。人生真是这样暗淡吗？为什么不能和自己相爱的人厮守？this fucking world, this fucking civilization, 惊心动魄排山倒海的爱情难道真是自私的基因为繁衍人类而包裹在苦难人生外面的糖衣吗？人孤独无助地来到这个世界，父母会逝去、子女会飞走、兄弟姐妹会有他们自己的人生，相爱的人会擦肩而过，恩爱夫妻会先后死去，把另一半孤独的留在人世，直面孤独，享受孤独注定是人生的常态。窗外是星空，面前是网络空间，也许人生之美注定是苍凉之美，像梵高的《星月夜》，火焰般的柏树，绚丽漩涡般的亮丽星旋，我看到梵高眼中的世界，那种太空般的深邃孤独，也许，也许能守护我们脆弱心灵的只有酒精、咖啡、运动、工作、暴食、烟草、音乐………甚至是蹦极跳那样的精神自慰。为什么？为什么? 美好的事物总是转瞬即逝，只有平淡无奇才会永恒？
你的女人花是为我而开吗？梅艳芳的歌那么悲凉无奈，就像她自己的人生，就像我小时候看过的昙花开放。在那个苍凉的矿山，命运把父母和我像外星人般抛到那个云南普通山谷，那时第一次体会美学元素就是和很多男女老少看电影似的围着那户姚姓人家的昙花，白色的花苞夹杂着粉红色的苞线，大家目不转睛的议论着、期盼着，一阵风吹过，一个白痴高叫“开了、开了”然后大众一阵哄笑。人们忍受不住这份平淡，纷纷离去。等到她在不经意中真正开放时，你知道那个兴奋的男孩吗，他高兴得直跳直叫，他真的认为那花是专为他一个人盛开的。
“若是你闻过了花香浓，别问我花儿是为谁红，爱过知情重，醉过知酒浓，花开花谢终是空，缘份不停留像春风来又走，女人如花花似梦”梅艳芳仍在播放器上低声倾诉。当年那男孩如今变成男人，变成老公，他真的好想好想变成你的老公，每夜让你枕在他肩头入睡，每天将你吻醒，挣比今天多得多的钱，让你生活在无忧无虑的奢华中。我们有缘吗？我们有份吗？我真想把所有我爱的人和爱我的人紧紧拥在怀中，永远不让谁离开。但终究会像肥皂泡碰在一起那样，一个个消散在星空中，留下我在深夜品味美味的咖啡和孤独。
v20110206 9
June 20
浓雾中的查米利雅
如果不是借助搜索引擎，五木宽之这个名字将永远尘封在我的记忆中了。多年以前，在云南那个小城，也许是冬夜，也许抽着现在感到极不舒服的香烟，听那个宗教研究所的老刘侃侃而谈，谈天主教在云南的传播，谈他的人生经历，谈形形色色的爱情观。为了证明他的观点，谈到他熟习的日本小说，谈到五木宽之，谈到五木的小说《浓雾中的查米利雅》。那时我23岁，刚刚开始真正的恋爱，沉浸在初恋的甜蜜中；他，一个中年人，一口世俗的昆明方言，虽然在什么宗教所讨生活，但感觉像南窑车站忽悠外地人的的士司机；我刚刚在警察学校当教师，自我感觉特爷们，特牛逼。如果不是因为漫长冬夜的无聊，可能根本不会去他宿舍串门，也就不会在今天还会偶然想起他的说教。
什么《恋歌》，连Google, AltaVista这些大牌搜索引擎无数次搜索才搞掂的关键词，肯定不是我们这个时代的popular。我从来鄙视小说，它即便在我做学生那个时代就基本谈出了。可此情此景，在我离受感情折磨的苦难时刻，无言以对，心潮起伏，负疚、喜悦、惧怕、张狂、疲惫、欢愉、甜蜜、温馨、憧憬、悔恨，像他妈这个小岛常常经历的热带风暴，我晕，我居然想起了老刘，想起了五木宽之，想起了《恋歌》，想起了《浓雾中的查米利雅》。
那故事情节，即便当时就十分模糊，今天更是别梦依稀，我只是记得，我像那些每天努力工作，带点东方特有的忧郁，自我克制，喝日本清酒，有点装腔作势责任感的日本男人一样卷入了同样的感情漩涡。那些日本佬怎样选择我实实在在忘了。而我在作决定不需要与人商量的年龄，居然在搞掂和被搞掂之间徘徊。
靠，居然偶尔会用“狗日的”作爱称，那么自我的水晶女孩，那么刻骨铭心，我心灵深处两个自我的争辩，居然像17年前那个老刘和那个叫小王的我的深夜无眠不经意的事不关己的关于爱情观的争论。
那时的小王春风得意，相信爱情，实践着，激动着，骄傲着放狠话；老刘表示理解，平平谈谈地说故事，棉里藏针地自说自话，说那个与我们几乎不相关的五木宽之的《浓雾中的查米利雅》、《恋歌》，理性，木纳，好象最后说到一旦惊心动魄的恋人成为夫妻，支撑数十年婚姻生活的不是“爱情”而是“信任”。
我不是一直在和老刘他叫真吗？老刘深度近视，眼球暗淡无光，他不是科班出身的学者，怪不得即使在今天资讯爆炸的网络世纪，查他的名字也只有一本《云南天主教史》的作者而已。他自称是当过农民工人知识分子最后半路出家的文化人。他的爱情观说教带有几分草根智慧，带有几分异国哲理。呵呵呵呵，小王vs老刘，爱情vs理智，一个是相信后来好莱坞爱情产业的Titanic 电影般的爱情故事；一个是对男欢女爱不以为然，好心规劝，骨子里藐视、怀疑人类最古老故事主题的宗教研究所的中年人。
律师生涯中办过的婚姻家庭案，应该是我旁观者清的冷眼静观。其实老刘大部分是对的。山盟海誓的情书最后拿到法庭上不过是冷冰冰的书证；千里迢迢的婚姻最后居然让位于南方人睡凉席北方人睡棉被的生活习惯；那些离婚案当时对我就像外科医生面对女人胴体；我在结案后从来记不住当事人的姓名，但在那个案子中清楚记得的就是那个并不美丽的第三者的美丽名字：林千紫，委托人深仇大恨欲食肉寝皮而后快的他们故事中的女人，名字很有意境，right?，但真实的人物就像解剖后的腹腔一样真实而反胃。我自认为这些故事看得太多，可能内心深处用过“傻逼”来描述过当事人。但我并没有嘲笑过他们，我只是很职业的对待案件而已。我从来不会想到哪些故事会发生在我的世界中，因为我自信，“曾经沧海难为水，除却巫山不是云”，背颂下来的古诗可能在孩提时代，老爸那时并不告诉我是什么意思。他自己不知知道不知道，恐怕是1990年代才敢说自己全部理解了这句千古旧话到底是个啥意思，作者想表达啥子。体会这个境界有快感哦，一个什么印度作家歪批佛经，说，你不要看释迦牟尼成佛了，他他妈是王子耶，人世间的荣华富贵鱼水之欢经历到反胃，就像现在都市小资追求素食的感觉，一般人在第一楼，衣不蔽体经历着肉体的精神的饥饿；释迦牟尼当富人、当王子、上了二楼、三楼。。。顶楼他觉得没意思又下楼来恰好回一楼。那个印度阿三说，你不要以为你们这些“修炼者”和佛同在一楼以为自己也能达到佛的层级，你要像佛那样先上楼体验人生，再下来成佛。
我他妈后来总喜欢把这诗句引用，意思是我自己修成金刚看淡人世间滚滚红尘，意思是我处于“下楼”的阶段。可是好笑哦，可命运反过来嘲笑我，我好象听见神说：“VINCENT, 你也是个傻逼”。现在是我自己的赤身露体的选择。我该怎么办？什么叫不优柔寡断？就是对任何一个人说：去你妈的！？我脆弱到经常需要《圣经》的词句。可上帝也怕亚伯拉罕不爱他，而需要拿以撒来试验人对神的爱到底有多深，最后又改变主意说只要拿羊来做燔祭就可以了。
Genesis 22:16 写得明明白白：Then God said, “ Take your son, your only son, Isaac, whom you love, and go to the region of Moriah. Sacrifice him there as a burnt offering. 在12节里又说：“Do not lay a hand on the boy”, he said, “don’t do anything to him. Now I know that you fear God, because you have not withheld from me your son, your only son.”
最后我想泣血而诉，Oh, my holy God, here is the humble Vincent’s cry: let me be, give me strength, I am the lost sheep, give me the wisdom to choice, let me have ability to obey you, to follow your direction. God, I put myself on you hands.
That right, I will put myself on God’s hands.
2006/6/20, 3:40am
浓雾中的查米利雅
如果不是借助搜索引擎，五木宽之这个名字将永远尘封在我的记忆中了。多年以前，在云南那个小城，也许是冬夜，也许抽着现在感到极不舒服的香烟，听那个宗教研究所的老刘侃侃而谈，谈天主教在云南的传播，谈他的人生经历，谈形形色色的爱情观。为了证明他的观点，谈到他熟习的日本小说，谈到五木宽之，谈到五木的小说《浓雾中的查米利雅》。那时我23岁，刚刚开始真正的恋爱，沉浸在初恋的甜蜜中；他，一个中年人，一口世俗的昆明方言，虽然在什么宗教所讨生活，但感觉像南窑车站忽悠外地人的的士司机；我刚刚在警察学校当教师，自我感觉特爷们，特牛逼。如果不是因为漫长冬夜的无聊，可能根本不会去他宿舍串门，也就不会在今天还会偶然想起他的说教。
什么《恋歌》，连Google, AltaVista这些大牌搜索引擎无数次搜索才搞掂的关键词，肯定不是我们这个时代的popular。我从来鄙视小说，它即便在我做学生那个时代就基本谈出了。可此情此景，在我离受感情折磨的苦难时刻，无言以对，心潮起伏，负疚、喜悦、惧怕、张狂、疲惫、欢愉、甜蜜、温馨、憧憬、悔恨，像他妈这个小岛常常经历的热带风暴，我晕，我居然想起了老刘，想起了五木宽之，想起了《恋歌》，想起了《浓雾中的查米利雅》。
那故事情节，即便当时就十分模糊，今天更是别梦依稀，我只是记得，我像那些每天努力工作，带点东方特有的忧郁，自我克制，喝日本清酒，有点装腔作势责任感的日本男人一样卷入了同样的感情漩涡。那些日本佬怎样选择我实实在在忘了。而我在作决定不需要与人商量的年龄，居然在搞掂和被搞掂之间徘徊。
靠，居然偶尔会用“狗日的”作爱称，那么自我的水晶女孩，那么刻骨铭心，我心灵深处两个自我的争辩，居然像17年前那个老刘和那个叫小王的我的深夜无眠不经意的事不关己的关于爱情观的争论。
那时的小王春风得意，相信爱情，实践着，激动着，骄傲着放狠话；老刘表示理解，平平谈谈地说故事，棉里藏针地自说自话，说那个与我们几乎不相关的五木宽之的《浓雾中的查米利雅》、《恋歌》，理性，木纳，好象最后说到一旦惊心动魄的恋人成为夫妻，支撑数十年婚姻生活的不是“爱情”而是“信任”。
我不是一直在和老刘他叫真吗？老刘深度近视，眼球暗淡无光，他不是科班出身的学者，怪不得即使在今天资讯爆炸的网络世纪，查他的名字也只有一本《云南天主教史》的作者而已。他自称是当过农民工人知识分子最后半路出家的文化人。他的爱情观说教带有几分草根智慧，带有几分异国哲理。呵呵呵呵，小王vs老刘，爱情vs理智，一个是相信后来好莱坞爱情产业的Titanic 电影般的爱情故事；一个是对男欢女爱不以为然，好心规劝，骨子里藐视、怀疑人类最古老故事主题的宗教研究所的中年人。
律师生涯中办过的婚姻家庭案，应该是我旁观者清的冷眼静观。其实老刘大部分是对的。山盟海誓的情书最后拿到法庭上不过是冷冰冰的书证；千里迢迢的婚姻最后居然让位于南方人睡凉席北方人睡棉被的生活习惯；那些离婚案当时对我就像外科医生面对女人胴体；我在结案后从来记不住当事人的姓名，但在那个案子中清楚记得的就是那个并不美丽的第三者的美丽名字：林千紫，委托人深仇大恨欲食肉寝皮而后快的他们故事中的女人，名字很有意境，right?，但真实的人物就像解剖后的腹腔一样真实而反胃。我自认为这些故事看得太多，可能内心深处用过“傻逼”来描述过当事人。但我并没有嘲笑过他们，我只是很职业的对待案件而已。我从来不会想到哪些故事会发生在我的世界中，因为我自信，“曾经沧海难为水，除却巫山不是云”，背颂下来的古诗可能在孩提时代，老爸那时并不告诉我是什么意思。他自己不知知道不知道，恐怕是1990年代才敢说自己全部理解了这句千古旧话到底是个啥意思，作者想表达啥子。体会这个境界有快感哦，一个什么印度作家歪批佛经，说，你不要看释迦牟尼成佛了，他他妈是王子耶，人世间的荣华富贵鱼水之欢经历到反胃，就像现在都市小资追求素食的感觉，一般人在第一楼，衣不蔽体经历着肉体的精神的饥饿；释迦牟尼当富人、当王子、上了二楼、三楼。。。顶楼他觉得没意思又下楼来恰好回一楼。那个印度阿三说，你不要以为你们这些“修炼者”和佛同在一楼以为自己也能达到佛的层级，你要像佛那样先上楼体验人生，再下来成佛。
我他妈后来总喜欢把这诗句引用，意思是我自己修成金刚看淡人世间滚滚红尘，意思是我处于“下楼”的阶段。可是好笑哦，可命运反过来嘲笑我，我好象听见神说：“VINCENT, 你也是个傻逼”。现在是我自己的赤身露体的选择。我该怎么办？什么叫不优柔寡断？就是对任何一个人说：去你妈的！？我脆弱到经常需要《圣经》的词句。可上帝也怕亚伯拉罕不爱他，而需要拿以撒来试验人对神的爱到底有多深，最后又改变主意说只要拿羊来做燔祭就可以了。
Genesis 22:16 写得明明白白：Then God said, “ Take your son, your only son, Isaac, whom you love, and go to the region of Moriah. Sacrifice him there as a burnt offering. 在12节里又说：“Do not lay a hand on the boy”, he said, “don’t do anything to him. Now I know that you fear God, because you have not withheld from me your son, your only son.”
最后我想泣血而诉，Oh, my holy God, here is the humble Vincent’s cry: let me be, give me strength, I am the lost sheep, give me the wisdom to choice, let me have ability to obey you, to follow your direction. God, I put myself on you hands.
That right, I will put myself on God’s hands.
2006/6/20, 3:40am
v20110206 8
July 04
Award
2006年7月4日，一幅20年前不经意间随手而画的速写作品获海南省首届律师摄影书画展览比赛三等奖。
对美术的执著狂热早随岁月流逝而洗刷的干干净净。当年在沙坪坝直想退学去重读黄角垭的四川美院。不过后来连连庆幸老爸没有能力和热情支持我的梦想。所谓艺术家要么是远离尘嚣的唯美主义者，要么是难耐寂寞的媚世贩夫走卒。我想到可怜的梵高，生前受尽世俗嘲弄，死后倍受追捧。我庆幸自己没有走上“艺术”的不归路，我宁愿是个偶尔会为美好事物感动的律师，宁愿是个懂得欣赏美丽的大学教师。所有热情与灵感早已尘封，像装入瓶中沉睡海底的那个阿拉伯精灵。直到她进入我的生活，分享各自的经历，惊异共同的喜好，包括美术。我答应把自己过去的画作秀给她看，在故纸堆中能够示人的唯一那本1986年的速写本。在鸭尾溪那家充满英伦情调的咖啡馆，在窃窃私语的理查德克莱德曼的钢琴声中，和她分享往日星星点点的用画笔宣泄自我的残存记忆。
几天后，律师协会通知举办书画展，顺手将公文包中的速写本中几页送展，律协并未要求是近期作品。送展1986年的速写，有点把分享的惊喜让更多人知晓的暴露欲。为了她、为了共同的爱好，于是在7月4日有了今次的获奖。
在今天这个欲说还休的日子。把这份感受作为一个特别的礼物送给她。。。。。
v20110206 7
July 19
justitia
Justitia, 罗马诸神中的正义之神，我心目中的法律女神，是法律文化的象征。如果说手持利剑的女人有种震撼之美，那Justitia左手的天平则有一种理性之美，像罗盘，像地球仪，总有超乎世俗的神秘力量，让渺小的人类不至于在情绪中迷失。Justitia总是蒙着眼睛，据说她既然蒙了眼睛，看不见争纷者的面貌身份，也就不会受利诱，不必怕权势。她甚至可以连诸神都不必害怕。
Robert Cover在他的名著《程序》中写道，“蒙眼不是失明，是自我约束，是刻意选择的一种姿态……真的，看的诱惑，君子最难抗拒，特别是克服屏障而直视对象的诱惑”。接着另起一行：“程序是正义的蒙眼布。”（第1232页）这句话现在已经当作格言收入法学词典，每每被人引证。
东方佛教典籍中有“心眼”的术语。其实人的慧眼长在心中。肉眼看到的多半是幻像，闭上凡世的眼睛，用心灵的眼睛去追寻神的真理。蒙上世俗的眼睛，这是怎样一种自我约束，法律是理性和智慧的女儿，人世的欲望、激情、爱恋是产生不了法律的。罗马诸神有强烈的人格，甚至连Justita在追求正义时都需要蒙上她的眼睛。。。
我的电脑硬盘中有许许多多Justitia的形象，甚至有达利的超现实主义作品，她们总是那样丰满迷人，有一种冷冰冰的美感，但在她们蒙眼布后面，你又能感到热情澎湃的性的力量，我绝少向人提起这种感受，唯一一次提起竟然得倒“恶心”的回答。我向往神的力量，人绝对成不了神，但人可以追随神的足迹，我们人类本来不是野兽吗？正是向往神、亲近神、追求神的完美才使得我们远离兽性吗？人的骄傲不在于发明了电、核子能源、计算机，而在于人类发现了本属于神的法律制度，在西方语言中法律是和正义联系在一起的，以至于jus之类的词语在汉语中竟然到今天也无法翻译。汉语的“法”字只有规则的意思，没有正义的影子。没有正义制度哪有人类的发明？我为自己是一个自由意志的法律人而骄傲，我愿伴随Justitia去战胜形形色色的人。
justitia
Justitia, 罗马诸神中的正义之神，我心目中的法律女神，是法律文化的象征。如果说手持利剑的女人有种震撼之美，那Justitia左手的天平则有一种理性之美，像罗盘，像地球仪，总有超乎世俗的神秘力量，让渺小的人类不至于在情绪中迷失。Justitia总是蒙着眼睛，据说她既然蒙了眼睛，看不见争纷者的面貌身份，也就不会受利诱，不必怕权势。她甚至可以连诸神都不必害怕。
Robert Cover在他的名著《程序》中写道，“蒙眼不是失明，是自我约束，是刻意选择的一种姿态……真的，看的诱惑，君子最难抗拒，特别是克服屏障而直视对象的诱惑”。接着另起一行：“程序是正义的蒙眼布。”（第1232页）这句话现在已经当作格言收入法学词典，每每被人引证。
东方佛教典籍中有“心眼”的术语。其实人的慧眼长在心中。肉眼看到的多半是幻像，闭上凡世的眼睛，用心灵的眼睛去追寻神的真理。蒙上世俗的眼睛，这是怎样一种自我约束，法律是理性和智慧的女儿，人世的欲望、激情、爱恋是产生不了法律的。罗马诸神有强烈的人格，甚至连Justita在追求正义时都需要蒙上她的眼睛。。。
我的电脑硬盘中有许许多多Justitia的形象，甚至有达利的超现实主义作品，她们总是那样丰满迷人，有一种冷冰冰的美感，但在她们蒙眼布后面，你又能感到热情澎湃的性的力量，我绝少向人提起这种感受，唯一一次提起竟然得倒“恶心”的回答。我向往神的力量，人绝对成不了神，但人可以追随神的足迹，我们人类本来不是野兽吗？正是向往神、亲近神、追求神的完美才使得我们远离兽性吗？人的骄傲不在于发明了电、核子能源、计算机，而在于人类发现了本属于神的法律制度，在西方语言中法律是和正义联系在一起的，以至于jus之类的词语在汉语中竟然到今天也无法翻译。汉语的“法”字只有规则的意思，没有正义的影子。没有正义制度哪有人类的发明？我为自己是一个自由意志的法律人而骄傲，我愿伴随Justitia去战胜形形色色的人。
v20110206 6
March 09
青青子衿
2006年12月6日到现在已经3个月了，生命中这三个女人像风--Vivienne像微风飘走了、Tracy像热带风暴，激烈携风雨、Zhang像毫无征兆的龙卷风，在和煦的季节让我毫无准备地改变了生活……
我以为自己已经足够坚强了，可以像释迦族的那个王子那样，独自去面对生活的一切，一个人的春节、一个人的情人节、一个人的日日夜夜，我确实那样坦然自信没有一丝一毫失落的感觉，但是，不经意的夜深人静之时，听着电脑里平原凌香的《苏州夜曲》，浏览翻译成中文的歌词（这才知道这日文歌词原来居然是西条八十写的）
揽于君怀醉倾听
梦般船谣与鸟鸣
水乡苏州春花散
多情柳条泣飘零
浮花流水明何去
举凡世人不知情
今宵映水两人影
不渝誓情波粼粼
君折桃花在手心
妆点发饰又亲亲
眼中泛泪朦胧月
寒山寺处钟声鸣
强烈的情绪涤荡心灵，会想她们，恨她们，会想重新去选择。如她所说我拥有太多了吗？此时此刻我感觉坐在狂风后的废墟上，在MSN上疯狂搜索，盼望她突然出现在线上，想她的刻薄，想她的温柔，会想鼓起勇气对她说“让我回到你身边做个好男人”把她们熟悉的Vincent改成了“青青子衿”，上线的却不是她，问起“子衿”的来历，想到我和她的儿子，想到了紫色水晶，想到粉红色的戴安芬，老老实实地回答“来自《诗经·郑风·子衿》”，那边说，不明白，看不懂文言文，我突然有翻译的冲动却是希望看不道的她们能看到：
穿青色衣服的人啊，总让我魂牵梦萦
就算我不能去找你，你也不给我只言片语？
总带着青色玉佩的人啊，让我思绪万千
我不能去看你，你就不会主动来找我？
踯躅在一个又一个城门口，看着熙熙攘攘的人群，
多希望你出现在人群中，
虽然只和你分开数日，但却像过去了很多年。
我原来有如此茫然无助脆弱的时候，我要醒着，我要抗住，按自己选择和被选择的路走下去，走下去……………
可以没有沙滩，我有我的慢跑鞋；可以没有红颜，我可以品味咖啡为伴；可以没有缠绵，我害怕彼此心灵的伤害。
我要抗住，按自己选择和被选择的路走下去。
青青子衿
2006年12月6日到现在已经3个月了，生命中这三个女人像风--Vivienne像微风飘走了、Tracy像热带风暴，激烈携风雨、Zhang像毫无征兆的龙卷风，在和煦的季节让我毫无准备地改变了生活……
我以为自己已经足够坚强了，可以像释迦族的那个王子那样，独自去面对生活的一切，一个人的春节、一个人的情人节、一个人的日日夜夜，我确实那样坦然自信没有一丝一毫失落的感觉，但是，不经意的夜深人静之时，听着电脑里平原凌香的《苏州夜曲》，浏览翻译成中文的歌词（这才知道这日文歌词原来居然是西条八十写的）
揽于君怀醉倾听
梦般船谣与鸟鸣
水乡苏州春花散
多情柳条泣飘零
浮花流水明何去
举凡世人不知情
今宵映水两人影
不渝誓情波粼粼
君折桃花在手心
妆点发饰又亲亲
眼中泛泪朦胧月
寒山寺处钟声鸣
强烈的情绪涤荡心灵，会想她们，恨她们，会想重新去选择。如她所说我拥有太多了吗？此时此刻我感觉坐在狂风后的废墟上，在MSN上疯狂搜索，盼望她突然出现在线上，想她的刻薄，想她的温柔，会想鼓起勇气对她说“让我回到你身边做个好男人”把她们熟悉的Vincent改成了“青青子衿”，上线的却不是她，问起“子衿”的来历，想到我和她的儿子，想到了紫色水晶，想到粉红色的戴安芬，老老实实地回答“来自《诗经·郑风·子衿》”，那边说，不明白，看不懂文言文，我突然有翻译的冲动却是希望看不道的她们能看到：
穿青色衣服的人啊，总让我魂牵梦萦
就算我不能去找你，你也不给我只言片语？
总带着青色玉佩的人啊，让我思绪万千
我不能去看你，你就不会主动来找我？
踯躅在一个又一个城门口，看着熙熙攘攘的人群，
多希望你出现在人群中，
虽然只和你分开数日，但却像过去了很多年。
我原来有如此茫然无助脆弱的时候，我要醒着，我要抗住，按自己选择和被选择的路走下去，走下去……………
可以没有沙滩，我有我的慢跑鞋；可以没有红颜，我可以品味咖啡为伴；可以没有缠绵，我害怕彼此心灵的伤害。
我要抗住，按自己选择和被选择的路走下去。
v20110206 5
June 02
鞋裤衩子弹
钱可以买到房子，但卖不到家；可以买到钟表，但卖不到时间；可以买到床，但卖不到睡眠；可以买到书，但卖不到知识；可以买到医疗服务，但卖不到健康；可以买到心肝肾脏，但卖不到生命；可以买到性，但卖不到爱情。
但是，有几个人能够Enjoy没有房子的家？没有钟表怎么把握时间？正常人如果不睡在床上怎么会有好的睡眠？连书都卖不起怎么可能学到知识？高质量的医疗服务可以增进健康；心肝肾脏的移植可以最大限速延续生命；没有性哪来爱情？
所以没有钱是万万不能的。只能说在所有宝贵的东西中，钱是最起码的一个，有比钱更宝贵的东西。
钱只是一双鞋，使人能够到达远方的目的地，不穿鞋也可能走到目的地，前提是不能太远。
钱只是裤衩背心和衣服，保护人不受严寒，迎合令人发指的社会文化压迫，满足人的自尊心或者虚荣心，不穿衣服人也能极端地活着，前提是有一幅人猿泰山般的身板（恐怕得靠潜意识的能量才能对抗人类文化的软刀子），穿上衣服人更有其他重要的事情。
钱只是射杀猎物的子弹，子弹打出去，不见得就打倒猎物，但只有不停的尽量准确射击才能射杀猎物。开枪固然能取乐，但记住，不要无目标的乱放枪。
有时候，为了达到目的，赤脚也必须去！
为了做更重要的事情，不穿衣服也得干！
为了捕获猎物，没有子弹一样要干，用刀子、用棍棒、用陷阱……
鞋裤衩子弹
钱可以买到房子，但卖不到家；可以买到钟表，但卖不到时间；可以买到床，但卖不到睡眠；可以买到书，但卖不到知识；可以买到医疗服务，但卖不到健康；可以买到心肝肾脏，但卖不到生命；可以买到性，但卖不到爱情。
但是，有几个人能够Enjoy没有房子的家？没有钟表怎么把握时间？正常人如果不睡在床上怎么会有好的睡眠？连书都卖不起怎么可能学到知识？高质量的医疗服务可以增进健康；心肝肾脏的移植可以最大限速延续生命；没有性哪来爱情？
所以没有钱是万万不能的。只能说在所有宝贵的东西中，钱是最起码的一个，有比钱更宝贵的东西。
钱只是一双鞋，使人能够到达远方的目的地，不穿鞋也可能走到目的地，前提是不能太远。
钱只是裤衩背心和衣服，保护人不受严寒，迎合令人发指的社会文化压迫，满足人的自尊心或者虚荣心，不穿衣服人也能极端地活着，前提是有一幅人猿泰山般的身板（恐怕得靠潜意识的能量才能对抗人类文化的软刀子），穿上衣服人更有其他重要的事情。
钱只是射杀猎物的子弹，子弹打出去，不见得就打倒猎物，但只有不停的尽量准确射击才能射杀猎物。开枪固然能取乐，但记住，不要无目标的乱放枪。
有时候，为了达到目的，赤脚也必须去！
为了做更重要的事情，不穿衣服也得干！
为了捕获猎物，没有子弹一样要干，用刀子、用棍棒、用陷阱……
v20110206 4
August 20
BASIC LAWS
运动是不平衡的表现；不平衡是运动的缘由。
不平衡-----------------运动-----------------平衡----------复杂化-----------不平衡-----------运动。。。。。。。。。。
氢原子---氢分子，，，水分子（氢原子与氧原子结合）
人群在满足基本需求后总是走向复杂化，复杂化超过界限，满足模式崩溃。。。。。。。。。。。
BASIC LAWS
运动是不平衡的表现；不平衡是运动的缘由。
不平衡-----------------运动-----------------平衡----------复杂化-----------不平衡-----------运动。。。。。。。。。。
氢原子---氢分子，，，水分子（氢原子与氧原子结合）
人群在满足基本需求后总是走向复杂化，复杂化超过界限，满足模式崩溃。。。。。。。。。。。
v20110206 3
August 20
20080820
沉默权
bloged on April 3，2008 in www.tianya.cn by VINCENT use id 神风123
我是人，不可能24小时微笑，也有郁闷的时候，甚至要经历巨大的心理压力。我目前还做不到“在你高兴时一定要陪你高兴，在你郁闷时也要郁闷，在你承受心理折磨时，要保持同样心态”，但我会努力去做，尽量从在时间上同步做起，即：当你情绪由“阴”转“晴”时。尽量快的调整心情使坏情绪烟消云散。
在我处于你同样会经历的“坏情绪”时，我已经不可能用传统方法排解了：已经承诺不抽烟了（我10年前就彻底戒烟了，但最近又时常想抽烟），已经承诺不打人（你知道我从来没有、将来也不会打任何女人，但我仍然高兴把这作为一个庄严的诺言）。已经承诺不与任何异性保持超乎朋友的关系，放弃向异性倾诉的情绪排解手段。为了将来的宝宝，我也不能酗酒。以上这些即便情绪失控时我也会像个男人，要遵守诺言。嗑药、暴走、虐待动物；加班、出差、欺负下属；飚车、攀岩、蹦极跳之类我又不爱好，所以，为了给我坏情绪一个排解的管道，我希望你理解我的一种做法。为了明晰概念，姑且叫它“沉默权”吧。还在我们都是学法律的，不会误解。
在我笑不出来时，在我情绪失控时，不要逼我笑，不要逼我立马高兴，当然你会说你也是人，而且是万里挑一的优秀女人，不能承受这些。这我理解。你可以按你自己方式表达情绪，但为了在双方情绪都非常糟糕时使事态进一步恶化，我想，我需要一样东西：就是：你放任我保持沉默。不要逼我解释，不要逼我匹配你情绪，放我一个人。
这种“沉默权”可以表现为以下方面：
一，在你发脾气时。我可以不说任何话。可以放任本人真实表情流露，即不想微笑时，可以不微笑。可以“丧着脸”。在这种时候，你要求我主动去“哄”你是不现实的，也是一种折磨我的方式，你爱我，当然不希望用这种方式折磨我。对吧？
二，在我情绪失控时，我可以不回复你的短信和电话。
三，在我情绪失控时，我可以一个人离开你独处。在这种情况下，我不与任何女性联系和接触。
四，我行使沉默权不超过48小时（经事先与你协商一致，我希望极端情况下可以适当延长）。
五，一旦我情绪恢复控制，我必须立即主动哄你开心。
我有一串普通的绿松石手链，虽然廉价但是是真材实料。当我把手链戴在左手时，就是我想要“沉默权”的时候。
以上，和你商量。如果有建设性意见，可以直说，我也是讲道理的人。我知道这样直说可能会引发不快情绪，因为我们都太爱对方了。对不起！但你不妨把不愉快的原因说出来。以我的经验，真诚对话可以解决大部分人类对抗。
最后多说一句：人间最巨大的悲剧往往都披着“爱”的外衣。是理性让人类生活得更美好。所以我认为，建立在理性基础上的爱将会更坚固和持久。
20080820
沉默权
bloged on April 3，2008 in www.tianya.cn by VINCENT use id 神风123
我是人，不可能24小时微笑，也有郁闷的时候，甚至要经历巨大的心理压力。我目前还做不到“在你高兴时一定要陪你高兴，在你郁闷时也要郁闷，在你承受心理折磨时，要保持同样心态”，但我会努力去做，尽量从在时间上同步做起，即：当你情绪由“阴”转“晴”时。尽量快的调整心情使坏情绪烟消云散。
在我处于你同样会经历的“坏情绪”时，我已经不可能用传统方法排解了：已经承诺不抽烟了（我10年前就彻底戒烟了，但最近又时常想抽烟），已经承诺不打人（你知道我从来没有、将来也不会打任何女人，但我仍然高兴把这作为一个庄严的诺言）。已经承诺不与任何异性保持超乎朋友的关系，放弃向异性倾诉的情绪排解手段。为了将来的宝宝，我也不能酗酒。以上这些即便情绪失控时我也会像个男人，要遵守诺言。嗑药、暴走、虐待动物；加班、出差、欺负下属；飚车、攀岩、蹦极跳之类我又不爱好，所以，为了给我坏情绪一个排解的管道，我希望你理解我的一种做法。为了明晰概念，姑且叫它“沉默权”吧。还在我们都是学法律的，不会误解。
在我笑不出来时，在我情绪失控时，不要逼我笑，不要逼我立马高兴，当然你会说你也是人，而且是万里挑一的优秀女人，不能承受这些。这我理解。你可以按你自己方式表达情绪，但为了在双方情绪都非常糟糕时使事态进一步恶化，我想，我需要一样东西：就是：你放任我保持沉默。不要逼我解释，不要逼我匹配你情绪，放我一个人。
这种“沉默权”可以表现为以下方面：
一，在你发脾气时。我可以不说任何话。可以放任本人真实表情流露，即不想微笑时，可以不微笑。可以“丧着脸”。在这种时候，你要求我主动去“哄”你是不现实的，也是一种折磨我的方式，你爱我，当然不希望用这种方式折磨我。对吧？
二，在我情绪失控时，我可以不回复你的短信和电话。
三，在我情绪失控时，我可以一个人离开你独处。在这种情况下，我不与任何女性联系和接触。
四，我行使沉默权不超过48小时（经事先与你协商一致，我希望极端情况下可以适当延长）。
五，一旦我情绪恢复控制，我必须立即主动哄你开心。
我有一串普通的绿松石手链，虽然廉价但是是真材实料。当我把手链戴在左手时，就是我想要“沉默权”的时候。
以上，和你商量。如果有建设性意见，可以直说，我也是讲道理的人。我知道这样直说可能会引发不快情绪，因为我们都太爱对方了。对不起！但你不妨把不愉快的原因说出来。以我的经验，真诚对话可以解决大部分人类对抗。
最后多说一句：人间最巨大的悲剧往往都披着“爱”的外衣。是理性让人类生活得更美好。所以我认为，建立在理性基础上的爱将会更坚固和持久。
v20110206 from wangyancheng.spaces.live.com 2
January 15
20100115 My Rewriting
2010-1-15
A Man And A Group of Children
A man was annoyed by a group of children whom play near his house. He came to them and said, “I’m so glad that you play here, because you bring me your amazing laughing. Let me give every of you 3 dollar for thank you.” The children got the money and promised they would come again.
Next day, the children came and played. The man thanks them again and gave every of them 2 dollar. He invited them to come tomorrow.
The children continued their game there in the third day. However, the man said to the children, “ I haven’t enough money to you, so I give every of you half dollar today.” The children were very angry. They decided never play there.
Ah, this is Vincent. I read this story in the net, and rewrite it by my words in 15th February, 2010.
一个男人对每天在他屋前玩耍的一群孩子很不高兴。他对他们说：“你们的欢笑声让我感到很愉快，感谢你们带给我快乐，我给你们每人3块钱吧。”孩子们拿了钱答应经常会来。
第二天，孩子们又来玩耍。那男人再次感谢孩子们并给他们每人2块钱。
第三天孩子们又来继续他们的游戏。但是这次那男人对孩子们说“我的钱不够分给你们了，今天就给你们一人五毛钱吧。”孩子们非常生气，决定再也不在这男人的屋前玩耍了。
哈，这是Vincent，我在网上看到这个故事，然后用我自己的语言重写了一遍。（然后再用中文又写了一遍。）
20100115 My Rewriting
2010-1-15
A Man And A Group of Children
A man was annoyed by a group of children whom play near his house. He came to them and said, “I’m so glad that you play here, because you bring me your amazing laughing. Let me give every of you 3 dollar for thank you.” The children got the money and promised they would come again.
Next day, the children came and played. The man thanks them again and gave every of them 2 dollar. He invited them to come tomorrow.
The children continued their game there in the third day. However, the man said to the children, “ I haven’t enough money to you, so I give every of you half dollar today.” The children were very angry. They decided never play there.
Ah, this is Vincent. I read this story in the net, and rewrite it by my words in 15th February, 2010.
一个男人对每天在他屋前玩耍的一群孩子很不高兴。他对他们说：“你们的欢笑声让我感到很愉快，感谢你们带给我快乐，我给你们每人3块钱吧。”孩子们拿了钱答应经常会来。
第二天，孩子们又来玩耍。那男人再次感谢孩子们并给他们每人2块钱。
第三天孩子们又来继续他们的游戏。但是这次那男人对孩子们说“我的钱不够分给你们了，今天就给你们一人五毛钱吧。”孩子们非常生气，决定再也不在这男人的屋前玩耍了。
哈，这是Vincent，我在网上看到这个故事，然后用我自己的语言重写了一遍。（然后再用中文又写了一遍。）
v20110206 from wangyancheng.spaces.livel.com
May 17
20100517
天空的形状
小明的房间的窗户是长方形的。小丽的房间的窗户是圆形的。小青的房间位于阁楼上，她的窗户是三角形的。一天晚上，他们三人同时看到了星空和一颗流星。于是三人在网上谈论天空的形状。小明说“天空是长方形的，流星从刚好从一个对角线经过”，小丽说“天空是圆形的，流星穿越的轨迹刚好穿过直径”，小青说“天空是三角形的，流星是从三角形的一个边呈平行线经过”。我说他们是在争论他们的窗户，而不是天空，天空始终如一，跟任何窗户毫不相干。
人类的局限在于只能通过头脑认识事物，通过语文表达事物，就像必须通过窗户观察天空一样，头脑无非是经验、意识、潜意识、集体无意识的综合物，语文不过是象征物，一如ma就是ma的发音而已，但是在语文中象征母亲的意思，于是人们看到的事物也就再也不是事物本身了，人们用语文表达的事物要更加小心。
指向北极星的树枝
小明为了帮助小丽看见北极星，在地上插了一条树枝，让小丽站在他身边顺着树枝顶端的方向往前看，就可以看到北极星了。第二天晚上，小丽带小青来到树枝前，告诉小青“顺着这里看过去，你就会发现什么神奇的东西”，小青看到了树枝，但小丽的意思是北极星。
语言、文字、诗歌、文学、符号、象征物、音乐等等都不是它们表达的事物的本身，它们只是一个指向某种事物的“树枝”，我们往往执着在树枝，全然不知或者忘记了北极星。
(从wangyancheng.spaces.live.com移过来的）
20100517
天空的形状
小明的房间的窗户是长方形的。小丽的房间的窗户是圆形的。小青的房间位于阁楼上，她的窗户是三角形的。一天晚上，他们三人同时看到了星空和一颗流星。于是三人在网上谈论天空的形状。小明说“天空是长方形的，流星从刚好从一个对角线经过”，小丽说“天空是圆形的，流星穿越的轨迹刚好穿过直径”，小青说“天空是三角形的，流星是从三角形的一个边呈平行线经过”。我说他们是在争论他们的窗户，而不是天空，天空始终如一，跟任何窗户毫不相干。
人类的局限在于只能通过头脑认识事物，通过语文表达事物，就像必须通过窗户观察天空一样，头脑无非是经验、意识、潜意识、集体无意识的综合物，语文不过是象征物，一如ma就是ma的发音而已，但是在语文中象征母亲的意思，于是人们看到的事物也就再也不是事物本身了，人们用语文表达的事物要更加小心。
指向北极星的树枝
小明为了帮助小丽看见北极星，在地上插了一条树枝，让小丽站在他身边顺着树枝顶端的方向往前看，就可以看到北极星了。第二天晚上，小丽带小青来到树枝前，告诉小青“顺着这里看过去，你就会发现什么神奇的东西”，小青看到了树枝，但小丽的意思是北极星。
语言、文字、诗歌、文学、符号、象征物、音乐等等都不是它们表达的事物的本身，它们只是一个指向某种事物的“树枝”，我们往往执着在树枝，全然不知或者忘记了北极星。
(从wangyancheng.spaces.live.com移过来的）
20110203
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